January 18, 2022

I feel like my brain is exploding from pressure and stress. Honda Kona is giving me grief with my car and I feel like they are trying to screw me out of my warranty and money. I'm so frustrated with them and the issues that I am having with my dashboard light. I am probably going to contact the General Manager soon.

I also am feeling overwhelmed with the new job, Constellation Learning Institute. This is my first time doing this, so I am freaking out a little. I just have to remember that this time last year I was almost doing the same thing, but just jumping into teaching science. I can't even believe that I survived that. Remembering this helps me to remember that I can do hard things. I can make it through tough times. 

Here is the list of things that I need to do that I am stressed about: 

- Working on Teaching for Change & Aupuni portfolios

- IEPs coming up

- Constellation Learning Institute Course

- Study for Praxis

- Lesson plan for ELA & Math

- Prepare for Pili A Pa'a

- Figure out Honda Kona shit

- In major debt with credit cards, student loans, bank, and car loans (need to pay them down and off!!)

- Need to schedule a flight to Utah in June

- Apply for PDI dance classes

- Apply for housing with the DOE

- Start rental hunting again

- Losing weight (goal: 30-40lbs)

I can do this, however, it's okay to feel overwhelmed. I can do this. I am strong, I am wise, I am kind, I am a hard worker. I need to be better with my money, I need to have the confidence that I can live under my means.